I've been contemplating this blog for quite sometime, and I'm still not sure the direction that this blog is supposed to take, but here we go..
The last 6-8 months have been a whirlwind, and I could not be more thankful for that. I've always thought I knew what it meant to trust. I've always really struggled with it, but I knew what it took. I hated it because it requires me to vulnerable. (Let's be real here... it's not something I enjoy, but at least I don't hate it anymore). I'm not good at trusting because that means I have to be vulnerable, which = chance of being hurt, if I'm being honest (see what I did there..). I've even told my new, totally God sent friend Nikeidra (get ready... This is huge)... That I build walls and don't open up well, so she has to hold me accountable. Yep.. I, Brooke Stewart, told someone NEW in my life to make me open up. Jesus does work miracles. :)
With that being said, the last few months I've had no choice. I've had to be vulnerable with God and those closest to me because I got to the point that I couldn't do life on my own. I didn't hit rock bottom, but life was just too much to handle. It's been rough, but oh so beautiful. I've had the privilege of learning even more what trust truly means. Just when I thought I knew where I (keyword there: I) wanted to be, God laughed and said, "Try again, Brooke. I have completely different plans." I had to trust that His plan was ultimate, which is MUCH harder said than done. (Thank goodness He's in control.. can't imagine my life how I had it planned.. sheesh!). I had to completely let go.. And trust. (Yikes! Scary!) Trust His timing. Trust His plan. Trust His love for me. Trust that He is constant and consistent. When everything else around me is chaos, which it has been, He is constant. He is peace.
So... Trust. Theme of my life recently. Some of you may be thinking, "Uhhh, Brooke. This is new to you?" The idea isn't new, but the acting it out sure is. Ask my dear friend Melissa. She pinpointed it right away in me has been a huge blessing in this beautiful journey.
Praise The Lord that He knows what's going on! It's such a freeing feeling to just let go.. Like really let everything go. I've never felt so much peace and lived such a stress free life. Hallelujah!
So, I'm going to Uganda in 2 WEEKS!:
The last few years God and I have been working on being intentional.. Intentional with my time, my words, my actions, my faith.. And the list goes on and on. For example, one of my biggest things is texting/emailing/calling/FBing friends when I see something that reminds me of them or when God puts them on my heart. So, being intentional is huge and is going to look so different in my life now. But with that, being intentional in Uganda is going to look so much different. I can't plan (yikes! I'm a planner!) because I don't really know what all we're doing yet, and if I did, things never go as planned.. it's Uganda, So.. Prayer request #1.
#2- People we're coming in contact with. Sarah and I really want some hands on medical action. Pray that we can shine Jesus wherever we are, while also being good servants with the talents God has given us.
#3 safety.. Some of you may remember what happened last time I was there. If not, just scroll down a few posts. God is sovereign. With that, my parents seem pretty together about everything right now, but give it time. Pray for peace for them. :)
There will be and are more, but this week, that can be our prayer focuses. Thank you for taking another journey with me and praying me (and my parents!) through this and through the last year of my life. Y'all are rock stars!
Praise The Lord!
Auntie Brooke
